Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on July 14, 2008, at 23:32:20
Ohhhh man. Hasnt been this bad in a LONG time. Just moved into a nice new house too. (with my folks of course, but I rent out the basement apartmentand I look after them too.) I decided to give Effexor yet another try. Maybe that was it. I was like a madman.
I would cry at the slightest thing, thinking always about how everyone I love is going to die and I am going to be left all alone. Plus, Ive got this song in my head, the particular lyric, from a song called On My Way..and it came out the year of my personal tragedies, and just is haunting.here is the lyric:Youre seven times the man Ill ever be
Like God on Sunday
I kiss the barrel spray my brains
All gone nowI just pulled this cd out this week and have been listening to it constantly. Something Kurt Cobain said rings true with me. I care wayyyy too much. I care for every little piece of living thing in this world. I am this hyper-sensitive pre-me baby who actually would have been an emotionally turmoiled Pisces but was ripped from the womb too early and became a non-compliant Capricorn. (I am SO UN-Capricornlol)
Ive also been arguing with my Dad, yes the one I love so much and begged for your prayers, constantly. I get short-tempered with him, he yells at me, I yell back. Its just badplain BAD!
So, I am back to juggling around some meds again. If I cant find anything, back to the doc for his suggestion.
Thanks for listeningand thanks for all your support
Jay
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