Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on May 11, 2008, at 1:32:07
I had such a bad night, which was supposed to be a 'social' night. I've been choking back tears, just because I tried to do the right, the good thing.
Well, I went to my brother's place, and he had a friend and his wife, as well as the friend's friend and his wife over. First off, they live in a subdivision, and I spotted a large plume of smoke come from a house about 4 doors down. It was a LARGE amount. So, I called 911, and it turned out to be some guy cutting cement for a patio door. The fireman told me that was good and smart of me to call because it could have been some other worse things.
So, meanwhile, my brother is having an illegal fire in an 'outdoor fireplace' (the portable ones you can buy at hardware stores...which are mean't for the country and people with permits.) So, the firetrucks are leaving this other house, and go by my brother's house, and see the fire, and fireman comes to the backyard and orders them to put it out. (There is a 25,000 dollar fine if you don't) So, the fireman leaves, and my brother just ignores him, so I grab the hose, and spray the thing out. All of a sudden, I am the "bad, stupid, any name you can think of in the book..".
As I am hearing this crap, I suddenly realize these people are most likely candidates for a Jerry Springger show. My brother doesn't exactly have a "squeaky clean" past himself.Okay, so, then, the night goes on a bit more, and the "friend's friend" starts bragging about his tattos, and start's being really rascist, making all kinds of rascist remarks, saying stuff I won't mention here because it would not only be uncivil, it also makes me sick to my stomach. Let's just say he was very much a "White Supremist". So, now by this time I had only a tiny amount of alcohol, and I was not going to let this guy get away with saying this stuff without telling him how I feel. And I did. I told him he should be ashamed of himself. (Sorry, am I being uncivil to the "White Supremists"?) He starts threatening me with violence, and the rage and anger and hate that came out of him was I am sure came from the same place as all other Nazi's.
But, I refused to fight physically, number one because I don't believe in any physical violence unless it is ABSOLUTELY neccessary. Plus, in my line of work, I cannot have any type of police record.My brother "sort-of" eventually "stood up" with me, but was reluctant. And this was on his property! When it came down to it, it just seemd like I was the 'troublemaker' just because I wanted to say and do what was good and right. In the end, my own brother let some stranger threaten and call me down on his own property. His defense is "Ohhh..I didn't know what was going on...blah blah." Well, wait until I tell my Dad what happened, and my brother will get sh*t and maybe even barred from this family forever.
My brother takes takes takes.....he has taken my stereos..(2 of them!)...various household and kitchen supplies....many 100's of dollars in booze....musical instruments...and just decided to keep them!I felt so let-down tonight...like I didn't even have a brother to trust in anymore. I'll never trust him again. My parents are getting older and and near the end of their lives, and I really could use that support. This is not the first time my brother has 'walked the line'. It's actually a good part of his history. Tonight was just like the final nail, though.
I was such a happy child and kid and loved life.
Then all of these mean-spirited, "tough" people took that magic away from me. I became a social worker because I believe in equality for every single human...everyone...and all's I get is spit in the face.:/ Jay
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