Posted by Kath on February 26, 2008, at 17:00:26
In reply to Re: Michael » Kath, posted by Michael83 on February 26, 2008, at 0:02:26
Oh Michael I am so sorry.
Do you see a therapist?
I'm also wondering if your doctor or pdoc know how it is for you. How long have you been on your current meds, etc.
You are in my thoughts Michael.
This is sort of blasphemous, so please forgive me okay? But it just came into my mind...if I were God(dess) I'd forgive you! xoxo K
PS - we all believe in 'God' or the Creator in our own way, I guess Michael. I don't belong to any religion, but I believe very strongly in God. "My" God is very loving, caring & understanding...and very forgiving.
At times when I've been worried about my kids, I try to remind myself of what I believe:
God loves them WAYYYYYYYY more than even I - their Mom - loves them. I think God loves us all like that.
You don't seem like a mean or hurtful person, Michael. You seem gentle, caring, kind, thoughtful, sensitive. How could a loving God NOT love you & accept you & forgive you?
I know how vicious worrying can be. My mind sometimes 'scans' to FIND something to worry about, so I know that one.
I think I posted on the Psychology board about a simple technique I learned yesterday at my first Group Therapy session. I said one of my main goals was to learn how NOT to be worrying all the time. The doctor leading the group taught us a method. It's really easy. I'm going to check on the Psychology board after I post this, to make sure I described the method.
I used it today again & HEY - IT WORKED!!!!!
I had to keep doing it for a while. I think for me it's one of those things that it might take me a while to REMEMBER to do it each time I start to worry. Mostly I worry about what will happen in the future with my son. And I worry what's going to happen NEXT with him. It's very stressful, because I'm not even worrying about anything specific.....just this nagging feeling of "Sh*t - I wonder what's going to happen next....there's ALWAYS been something ongoing for 10 years, so of course there is going to be a 'next'...."
Then I feel anxious & can't even enjoy it when nothing is WRONG!!!Anyhow, this method did help me. The doctor said to me, I do NOT think that you can accurately do this exercise and worry at the same time! Tell us next week if you are able to!!
And so what if I have to repeat this over & over...if it works it's worth it. It seems to break the cycle & then when I finally stop, I have some time when i'm Not worrying. Actually, I'll cut & paste it on this board, as it's quite useful & others might like to try it.
warm thoughts, Kath
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