Posted by Kath on February 1, 2008, at 17:30:27
In reply to Re: I'm really lonely- Kath and everyone, posted by tina on January 31, 2008, at 10:50:49
Today, it's sunny, so I'm going to go for a drive in the country. Maybe I'll find a little tearoom with a pretty window and sit there and read the paper.
*******Sorry you're depressed. That idea above sounds wonderful; did you find one? I love tearooms*******
I dunno. I'm just tired of watching everyone I know live these great lives with lots of friends, families, homes, love....all that good stuff, and not having any for myself.
****Yo Tina, I'm not trying to belittle your feelings, but we're looking in from the outside when we see other people. Who would believe, seeing me, that I am stressed beyond knowing with my son. Today he came with me to the pottery guild to help me 'clean surfaces'...it was my turn. There were 2 other potters there. Son was very polite & personable (I was proud of him). So, they could think (especially if they had problem kids of their own!) they could think "Oh MAN. She is so lucky. What a nice son & helping his Mom & so polite. What a lucky woman." MEANWHILE he's f***ed his brain up bigtime using drugs, has caused me about 13 years of GRIEF spelled with a BIG "G" & on a daily basis I feel worry & some level of dread as to what's going on with him. NOBODY would guess, Tina. I just wanted to say, I hear how you're feeling & I can understand your feeling like that, but PLEASE keep as part of your reality, that things are NOT always what they seem. Not too many people are going to spout off about how their husband is SO damned grumpy, or how their debts are hitting the roof, or their friends always spend their time bragging & don't even ASK THEM how they're doing.
Ya know what I mean? I hope you can know that although things LOOK a certain way, others might not be as fortunate as they look.
((((((you)))) once again....I'm not trying to be mean or negate your feelings; just encourage a possible 'reality filter'.******It isn't that I don't try, it just feels like no matter how hard I try, I'm still the one who is left alone.
> I don't want to be alone.
> Kath, I wish you did live closer. I'd come over and have tea every morning!! ;o)*******I'm sorry you're alone. And BOY do I wish we were closer. In fact, I just mentioned to hubby & we're hereby saying if it works for ya & you want to - come on out for a few days! Then we could have tea together for a few days at least!!! No pressure; just if you want to & could afford to, etc. luv ya, Kath****
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