Posted by stargazer2 on November 22, 2007, at 23:04:33 [reposted on November 25, 2007, at 3:07:21 | original URL]
In reply to Re: I realied i've been hibrinating for 2 years scary., posted by your#1fan on November 22, 2007, at 20:24:37
#1fan...
a few months ago after starting Nardil I said to my pdoc, "I feel like I just woke up", then I asked him "What the 'f' have I been doing for the last year and a half" as if he knew...but basically I was house bound and I couldn't tell you what I did every day but I feel busy or rather my mind was busy some days, other days I was comatose or paranoid about being at home not contributing to society or life at all.It sort of sounds like what you are desribing...I wasn't what I would call depressed all the time but I really was because I didn't leave the house more than a few times a week to grocery shop or see my pdoc, that was the extent of my life.
I couldn't work and now I want to work, although I have low self-esteem from being out of work for so long. The only was I can describe it was like I was "frozen" in time.
Bizarre, but at least I am coming out of that state and who knows what would have happened to me because I was really frustrated by the lack of progress in my treatment. I did spend alot of time on the computer researching other ideas for treatment because my pdoc was very keen on the AP's and I never felt they did anything but mess my balance up. I spent alot of time on the ground last year, that was frightening and misunderstood, even by my pdoc...DUH, it was the Lamictal that did that to me.
Stargazer
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