Posted by Fivefires on February 8, 2007, at 9:30:31
In reply to Re: Where post? Decompensating? Gravely ill! » Fivefires, posted by Phillipa on February 7, 2007, at 21:42:20
Thank you P, but I think this is the place for now, and our Dr. Bob can move this if necessary.
First forgive typos or errors, as I truly do not feel well.
P withheld needed med/treatment/tx for over three weeks or maybe this entire time ... a little over a month. Dc'd Ef*-XR w/o titration. Said no SSRI should be in body until E*f-X* is completely out. No responses or tx to my pleas for help for a month. Called in and had delivered to me the incorrent AD. I immediately told deliverer, my casemgr, it was the wrong AD. Office said there was nothing in chart re: it. Did NOT take it. Only crisis line in county had just 2peeps available. Only crisis line in county said would call me right back over weekend. I waited over 3hrs and then called them. I got so ill over that weekend, called EMS and spent 12hrs in ER for medical clearance and was ready to be admitted, but at last minute they called P and he said no & they pretty much threw me out the door, saying 'call your own cab' to my request as was crying, exhausted, and hands were trembling. A confidante of mine called and apparently there now appears to be written in chart 'p*tient agreed to take the AD' (This is sooo totally incorrect or a l*e for butt coverage.) I've left message for P to call in correct AD and P has not returned my call or done so. P has told me to stay offline as far as researching psych meds. P has told me, as to my cry*ng bouts, 'maybe you should be cry*ng'. P told my daughter I am decompensating. (Duh. Well, I wonder why?)
In a round about way, P has brought on incapacitation and my zombie-like state, as if it is exactly where he wants me for a 'long appt end of this wk w/ casemgr, T, my dau*hter, and I'.
Oh, he did offer to call in something like Haldol. Right!
Oh, and he did call in Vistaril. Yippee!
I've suffered very very much and maybe some more permanent damage because of above.
I've contacted NAMI and was given name of Advo*ate and called and am awaiting return call. I've contacted med-malpr atty and left message and am awaiting call. I've contacted BOM*X and lod*ed comp*aint and awaiting paperwork for formal comp*lant. What more shall I do friends?
Can I take a tape recorder to the appt? I have both a minicassette and a regular cassette, both rather old and not sure work that well. Too ill to mess w/ testing them.
See what I mean .. he's got me so ill I'm stretching what's left of me to the limit, in an effort to protect myself.
Why?
1) Don't want another to go through this because they are pro-active in their care and their P catches the 'I'm God & You're Not' virus, and takes it out on them.
2) Don't want to be mistreated and thus be sad (depressed!) because I've begun to believe I am not worthy of good care.
3) The first symptoms were like those which occurred before my first ner*ous breakd*wn 2yrs ago, in which case a P dc'd a benzo w/o titration also, and in which case, I was left suffering some permanent damage. I didn't want to be further damaged.
Is he young, handsome (Thinks he's God's gift!), undrerpaid and overbooked, and w/o enough experience and innocent here, or was this deliberate?
He saw me high-functioning and looking good. So, what do you think friends? I would make suggestions. I shared my knowledge of this medication v. another. I know it is important to be pro-active, but maybe I'd forgotten how to play those cards. The person holding the other hand needs to think he's the one that came up with the idea.
I'm not gonna' forget about it and try some deep breathing.
I've been violated.
Someone say they think I'm worthy.
My fam' of origin will not stand beside me in any way.
My poor grown children all just want their high-f*nctioning mom back.
Say a silent prayer for me please, that I prepare the proper info and am able to communicate clearly and take the right steps forward, back to being high-functioning again.
getangrywhencornered, 5f
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