Posted by Kath on January 25, 2007, at 16:58:04
In reply to Re: I'm really sorry everyone *****trigger******, posted by Deneb on January 25, 2007, at 16:19:43
> I'm scared Kath. I said I wasn't going to OD ever again and I did OD again. I hope this trip to the hospital really set me straight. I can't OD again, ever. I'm afraid of myself. I don't want to die. I dunno why I keep ODing.******I'm sure you're scared Deneb. I'd be really scared too. I think it's wonderful that you can be so open about feeling like that! Thanks for trusting me enough to tell me.
Deneb, do you feel comfortable telling your pdoc the very thing that you said above?
Could you ask her if she can help you about it...to help you come up with a concrete plan of how not to do it?
You know, Deneb, if she can't, or if you don't feel confident that she can, then maybe you'd consider getting either different, or additional help. When I was talking about the counselling office, I actually meant counselling about your stress situation/AND your OD situation. I'm sure you're not the only student to have these issues.***I'm thinking of going to a career counsellor. I need to figure out my life.
*****I think that sounds like a GREAT idea!!! I'm going to tell you a story that happened to me. When I was about 14 (and that's a LONGGGG time ago; I turn 60 on Feb 18th!!!) I started to get TERRIBLE headaches. They were awful & I can remember one time in particular, sitting on the chair in the kitchen in such pain - almost pulling my hair out. My poor parents were there & didn't know what to do. So, an appointment was made with a brain specialist (or something like that). He checked me out, examined me, etc. Then he sat down with me & asked, "so Kath, what would you like to do when you finish school? What type of job would you like?" I said that I didn't know. He looked me straight in the eye & very, very kindly said, "There is nothing that I am concerned about with your brain as far as your headaches are concerned. You don't need to worry about that at all! Do you know what I want you to do? I want you to go home & think about what you'd like to do in your life. Think about what kind of job you'd like to do; what line of work you'd like to be in. When you know, I want to hear what you come up with." I don't remember what I decided or any details at all EXCEPT that I never got another headache again. They stopped - just like that!!!!!! I think he was a very wise man. I think he realized that it was intense stress that was causing my headaches & that I needed to sort things out. It still amazes me when I think of that story.
In your case, it wouldn't surprise me if, once you figure things out a bit, you might be released from this anguish that you experience from time to time. I think it is a superb idea to talk with a career counsellor. It might take a bit of time to figure things out. You might need to do some research, etc. Please be really gentle with yourself about it, OK? There's no huge rush. If you feel that there's a rush, you can talk about it here. I think you're going to feel one whole lot better once you get this taken care of Deneb!
I have a suggestion. I'd say that while you're figuring this all out, have it be YOUR thing. I'd suggest NOT talking about it with your parents until you've had a chance to think about how YOU feel; what YOU like; what you WANT to do & what you DON'T want to do. It's a big decision. It might take a good while to figure it out!! I think you need time to mull over different ideas etc without involving your parents. This is YOUR life, Deneb. It's not that you're going to be mean & secretive about it...it's just that I think you need to not have any pressure or stress, etc. that parents can sometimes create.I send you big fat hugs! luv, Kath
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