Posted by sunnydays on January 19, 2007, at 18:34:39
In reply to Re: How can you be sure? *triggers* » Llurpsie_Noodle, posted by Deneb on January 19, 2007, at 12:07:52
> I'm doing better at the staying safe thing. I told my Mom this time.
**** That's really good. I hope she responded well. It's really important to tell people in real life.
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> I think a big part of what leads to my ODing is that I don't believe I will be harmed from them. My pdoc told me I wouldn't have died. I believe her. I OD to self harm, not to die. I know how much I need to take for there to be a chance of it being lethal. I don't approach that amount.*** Well, you are harmed, even if you don't die. Have you heard of building up a tolerance? I don't want you to build up a tolerance to whatever you take. Then you might end up having to take more to get the same effect you get now, and eventually you might approach the lethal level without meaning to. And it does harm your body, even if you can't see it. Just as alcoholism can cause liver damage or smoking can damage one's lungs without obvious side effects until much later, I believe that repeated ODing could do the same sort of thing. I just don't want bad things to happen to you Deneb.
If I'm able to tell my Mom or call my pdoc before I OD, that probably means I wouldn't have OD'd in the first place. I guess when I mean is, if I tell someone about it before I do it, that means I wasn't serious about it to begin with and was in no danger, but I think I know what you mean. Wouldn't it be like crying wolf if I say I'm thinking of ODing and I don't?**** No. It would mean you were thinking about it. If I say I'm thinking of having broccoli with dinner tonight, am I dishonest if I then don't have it? No, I just changed my mind. It's perfectly ok to change your mind, and probably healthier in the long run for you Deneb. People change their minds all the time, and sometimes it's the best thing you can do for yourself.
> I have an idea. I should write down the number for the Distress Centre and call them the next time I want to OD. That's a good idea right?**** That's an EXCELLENT idea Deneb. (((Deneb)))
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