Posted by TexasChic on October 20, 2006, at 20:53:49
In reply to The job's going quite well, posted by TexasChic on October 20, 2006, at 20:44:07
I'm very happy with my job. It has truly been an opportunity of a lifetime. Yesterday I attended a training class, it was very informative. They're good about that sort of thing. You can take classes on all kinds of things, specific software: dealing with difficult people, how to write professional emails, ect. My class was about the retail business and the company itself. Its weird, when I became a graphic artist I thought my career in retail was behind me. I never disliked retail, it just didn't pay enough to live off of. But now here I am again, it like I've come full circle. It just goes to show, you never know where life's going to lead you. Who would have thought those jobs at the mall would actually come in handy one day!
I also finally went to a Yoga class on Monday (my job has a fitness center and you can take classes for $20 a month.) I found out they have a Pilates class starting on Wednesday that I would really like to start going to. I've got to do something to get in shape. It seems like all I see all day long are these pencil thin beautiful young girls walking around in those pointy toed high heeled shoes that I can't wear because I would fall down. Or there's all the insanely skinny naked mannequins sitting around everywhere. Even when I was anorexic I wasn't that skinny. I guess all that gets me down sometimes. Not that I want to look like that, I'd be happy with a nice healthy size 12. I just don't want to be overweight anymore (I'm a 16 now).
I also can't wait until I can afford some new work clothes. Everyone is very fasionable out there. Not that I'm a bag lady or anything, I just feel very ordinary sometimes. At least I get a discount! I already have several shirts, pants and pairs of shoes all picked out for when I can afford to spend money on clothes. I know this all sounds like I'm being very looks obsessed, but I guess I just want to feel good about myself. I know I don't want to be a carbon copy of these chics, in fact, it kind of makes me laugh how alike they are. I just want to be able to hold my own. Does that make sense? I've always been such a hippy chic that these feelings make me feel like a hypocrite. But then its pretty typical for me to feel guilty about what is probably very common place feelings. What was it Larry told me - "My feelings are not subject to questioning by anyone. Even me." I've got to remember that, feeling are feelings.Anyway, whoever's reading, thanks for listening to me think out loud about things.
-T
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