Posted by Deneb on July 14, 2006, at 19:44:25
I HAVE PROBLEMS!!! I'm not a "normal" person. I really have problems! I'm damaged. I'm not right in my ^%%&ing head! Who would want me?
My ex boyfriend just saw my ad in that dating site. He's doing really well and I'm still nowhere. I don't think I should subject anyone to my messed upness. I'm glad he's doing well. Good thing I stepped out of the picture.
I think I should lock away from society on an island or somewhere. I don't belong. I should keep my craziness (not good craziness) to myself.
I'm even crazier than most here on Babble. Who am I kidding? I'm messed up! Obsessive Bob love, dramatic death posts, unmatched euphoric type happiness followed by catastrophic crises. What the hell???
How did I turn out like this?? It's not like my childhood was traumatic.
Why can't I do anything??? I'm not doing anything! I sleep all day for a few days, then I don't need sleep for a few days and I pace around the house and look at my hamster. I haven't been outside in days! I don't read or clean or do anything productive. I just surf the web and pace the house. What's wrong with me?!?!
Nothing to do, but pace around the house, pace around the house, pace around. Sit here, stare at screen, stare at screen, stare at screen. What's wrong with me?!!! Why don't I do anything??? I may as well be a vegetable.
Pace the house and think of Bob, how crazy is that? I'm seriously messed up! Obsess about cancer, obsess about Bob. The real world?? What the hell is that? Am I in the real world?
People??? Contact? Contact with people?
I've become less and less functional over the years. What's wrong with me???? At this rate, I'm going to be catatonic soon!
Aaahhhh!
Deneb*
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thread:667140
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