Posted by llrrrpp on May 26, 2006, at 9:39:24
I was leaving my place this morning and there was a homeless woman asleep on the front steps. I've never seen her before, and I've never seen the homeless around my place. I feel bad because I should have tried to help her, but I was feeling kind of poorly myself and didn't want any more misery. I just stepped over her. I felt mad at her because she picked my stairs. I wanted to punish her by calling the Po-Po, but I didn't. I thought she must be even worse off then me. I thought she probably needed to sleep. She wasn't hurting anyone, even if she was kind of a blight. I should have given her some money, but I didn't. I should have given her some food, but I kept on walking, after I stepped over her. And I have regrets, and I will think about her, and what will happen to her today. Why is there so much suffering in the world? What happened to her? Will someone help her today? What if no one helps her today? Who am I to wallow in my self-pity as I type on my fancy computer and go about my comfortable life? How can she find the strength to wrap herself in blankets and fall asleep on a stranger's stoop, if I can't even find the will to keep living some days? Why do we live, when there's nothing to live for? When do we decide that there's nothing to live for? What would we do, if we looked around one day, and WE were the person asleep on the stairs, and we were the lowest of the low, the poorest of the poor, the sickest of the sick? How would we find the courage to keep going?
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