Posted by Tanzanite on March 26, 2006, at 14:11:42
I have not been doing good at all. I have been dealing with a lot of mind games with my husband and a lot of anger he directs towards me...always threatening to leave me, divorce me, just because I speak up and tell him how I feel and how things could be better around here for all of us. I feel that he neglects me and my stepdaughter, never goes the extra mile. Things are so stressful financially. Fighting has been going on and off for two weeks. I want to run away. Sometimes I just wish I were not here anymore at all, Like I should crawl in a hole and die. My house is falling apart. My life is falling apart. I thought we could do better, but he won't get the help he needs and wants to place all of this on me. The only other option I have is to leave if this keeps up. I love him and don't want to leave. Unfortanately, I would be walking out on my responsibility to pay on this mobile home we have that is in my name and the lease as well. The only option I have is to go back to my parents house (which would be a very bad idea), or stay here with no transportation, if he decides to leave. He says he isn't and is staying. But, the swearing, the threats of divorce, him not understanding that I have needs and desires, and feelings. No pill is gonna change that. I live everday in fear that I will be left all alone. I live everday in fear that I don't belong anywhere. I haven't even been posting. I don't feel like I can trust the person in the world I love the most because of lies and lack of patience. I just am soo tired. So very tired.
:(
Chelle
poster:Tanzanite
thread:624816
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