Posted by Lucia Francisca on January 25, 2006, at 14:01:37 [reposted on January 26, 2006, at 0:54:59 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Lack of structure, isolation, lack of purpose » Lucia Francisca, posted by sleepygirl on January 25, 2006, at 12:42:35
thanks, sleepygirl. i think those are wise and reasonable words. thank you.
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> > this new semester i feel just like i have so much empty time in the day that i don't know how to feel. i teach those 3 days a week, which gets me going, but the rest of MWF is still a whole day and i can't seem to figure out what to do with myself. ditto for T and TH, although sunday, tuesday, and thursday night i'm usually frantic cuz i don't prepare my lesson plan until the last minute and then am scrambling to get it together. for the last week, i've been having a lot of anxiety about teaching, fearing students think what i'm saying is uninteresting and obvious; i've been having problems, finding it challenging teaching this new book. i guess i'm still getting used to the new semester and the class and new students. but in short, i seem to stress out about every little thing about the class.
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> Hi there. Well, I don't know what to say, and of course you can take it or leave it, but I think you've got a lot of pressure on yourself and a lot of uncertainties. The problem with procrastinating about things is that it only pushes off the anxiety into a tremendous mountain at the end that one feels they can't possibly climb.
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> This may sound simplistic, but have you considered making a schedule for yourself to follow, so you can eliminate some big choices for yourself and just surrender to a little routine? I don't mean an all work and no play (makes Lucia a dull girl) type of schedule. There is the tiredness factor there, and after all we are only human right? but this sounds really important to you.
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> I'm just thinking that when you fear that you can't do something you might psych yourself out enough to start REALLY believing you can't, and thus you don't. I can't say writing a dissertation sounds like a lot of fun (to me). I hope though you can find something you really like within it.
> It'd be nice if you could enjoy your days, and then have a little hope in the future. We sort of get lost sometimes in our obligations/goals, and then they aren't fun anymore. There's got to be more than that I'd guess, but then there's a lot of anxiety along the way, so the question might become "is it worth it?"
> just some thoughts......be well
> -all the best,
> sleepygirl
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