Posted by wildcard11 on January 22, 2006, at 12:39:02
In reply to How many people are not where, posted by wildcard11 on January 21, 2006, at 20:21:58
I know that i should be grateful for the things i have and i am. I just thought i would have accomplished more. At 24 i had a great job making enough money to support myself and my son, my own place and going to school at night to get my degree. I had friends and played sports and after the rape, my entire life went downhill and i have not been able to get it back together 5 years later. I am with someone that i am not IN love with (he knows this), or maybe it is b/c i don't love myself. I feel so trapped. We have a 1 year old together and against all odds and precautions, i am pregnant. Please don't down me b/c i keep screwing up~i do enough of that. I just overcame so much as a kid and knew i would 'make it' but at 29 i am too damn scared to go outside or even answer my phone. How pathetic is that....However, i am taking steps to make things better but I'm just really down b/c i feel like a failure...one of those days.
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