Posted by ShellyM on January 18, 2006, at 7:33:23 [reposted on January 18, 2006, at 21:36:51 | original URL]
In reply to Growing with anxiety but determination, posted by rjlockhart on January 17, 2006, at 21:55:34
Hi Matt
I do know how you feel- from the time I was 17 to about 30 I went through a very scary, long period of being certain I was crazy insane. I had debilitating panic attacks and anxiety and could not think straight. It took me a really long time to believe that what I had was anxiety and that I wouldn't die, I wouldn't all of a sudden "lose it"- even though I was again sure that I would. I was scared to take medication and just getting up the courage to trust my Dr.'s medication recommendations took me years.
Finally, Finally, over the past 10 years (I'm 40) I have gotten on medications (it took a long time to find the combo that worked) and today I can say that I know that anxiety, panic, racing thoughts, etc. won't drive me crazy and that I am okay. I still live with anxiety, which is better most of the time, but I still have to manage through. But I am and today I know that the wide spectrum of feelings means the Good and the Bad....
I will include you in my prayers and pray for God to provide you guidance and protection.
I too believe you will be okay.
Best Wishes,
Shelly
> I have not felt this way before, i just know that I am going to make it.
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> I .. I have been through so much chaos with overwhemlming though, Fear of what going to happen, what is wrong with me i sit spaced out with fear surrounding me.
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> First, i have been through growing not knowing, well the last year if im ok, you know.
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> Even right now im typing in a very still anxiety state, i feel i cant even move. Im afraid that what im thinking is not right, im thinking there is something wrong, im thinking that i feel im growing but afraid.
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> Im so scared right now that im going to crazy im paralyzed, im sitting so still looking at this screen, not knowing what is to happen.
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> Fear is many things, but it gets to a point where it is so intense it makes stillness.
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> I dont know, i just know that life is here, and im here. And i am going to make it.
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> Please pray i will go back to normal, please.
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> Matt
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