Posted by Deneb on August 18, 2005, at 21:24:40
In reply to Re: Discrimination against me? » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k on August 18, 2005, at 16:42:36
> I guess thats where other people with BPD may feel like you are saying that BPD isn't a "real" mental disorder. And that is invalidating of their very real struggle.
Sorry about that. In my mind I meant that BPD for *me* isn't a real disorder, but for *other* people it is. I know this doesn't make much sense, but I really believe this. I think that I'm an exception to the laws of the universe or something. :-( That is also why I don't think therapy or medication can help me like they do for other people.
> (And I'm sure you didn't mean to imply that BPD is the fault of the people who experience it)
No, I didn't mean that. I was just showing that I am taking responsibility for the horrible things I do and I'm not blaming any disorder. I guess it sort of came out wrong and I made others with BPD feel bad.
> Most especially if you learn more appropriate ways of getting attention and sympathy.
It's so complicated. I must sound really stupid or something, but it is. I thought I was doing much better with my posts. I'm not sure what's appropriate or not.
> So...
> If you find that people ignore those kinds of posts...
> That may well be why.
> Because people are trying to help you.
> Make sense?I guess so, but it's difficult to imagine that people can ignore me and want to help me at the same time.
>If you don't get a response to an admin type question in a couple days or so then post the question again... A few of those tends to induce a response ;-)
I don't think we are allowed to post the same information twice. It's OK, something will distract me away from this issue and I will probably forget all about it soon.
> > Dr. Bob sometimes jokes around with other posters, but not with me.
>
> He has talked to you before...
> But he is also probably trying to be careful with respect to reinforcing certain kinds of posts...I personally don't think he thinks about reinforcing posts when he responds or doesn't respond. He probably just doesn't feel like responding for whatever reason. I don't expect him to respond to anything other than Admin questions and posts. I don't think he cares about us enough to get to know any of us. He probably doesn't even know who I am, much less think of something as elaborate as behaviour modification for posts to "help" me or anything!
> Don't look to him Deneb,
> Look to us.I'm not looking to him. I think it's projection gone haywire. Sorry I can't control this better.
> But its nice to report findings / provide feedback to professionals.
Eeek, I hope I don't stand out too much. I stand out don't I?
Thanks again Alexandra, you always help me understand things.
Deneb
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