Posted by jay on May 31, 2005, at 14:54:22
In reply to Moral question...please..I need answers..????, posted by jay on May 30, 2005, at 7:30:41
Well, the evidence is pretty much weighed and examined. I yearn for physical comfort and that "secret touch" of a woman, but it would likely break my heart in the end. I had my first breakdown 12 or so years ago when I was intimate with a gal I liked, but it turned out a disaster. I remember walking out of her apartment at 5 or so in the morning that summer eve, and I felt terrible. Why? Because I new I was just another face, another name to be checked off. I knew she liked just 'one night stands', and I paid for it. That week, I went to my doctor, bent and broken, feeling like the smallest piece of dirt in the world, and started psych meds. Now, I had a couple of one night stands before, but this was the straw that broke...you know the story. I was also feeling very weak inside as a person...and I have no problem with the meds...except all the years of experimentation with meds that really hurt me, that made me worse. But, without those, I wouldn't be in the 'functional' state I am today. It's a fine line I walk...but I am thankful for some of the great meds they have out today. Anyhow...I don't know what I wanted to say, except that this 'quickie sex' thing may be very unhealthy for me. The verdict is in..
Jay
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