Posted by alesta on May 17, 2005, at 19:49:39
In reply to sinking deeper and deeper....*trigger warning*, posted by alesta on May 17, 2005, at 15:53:25
thanks.:) these posts mean so much to you when you're feeling as low as i am...i'm just not capable of expressing it right now. love you guys.
i mentioned to my mom that i was depressed, again, and she just started in on me. (she has NPD.) she even had the nerve to actually say twice that she didn't care. those were the first words out of her mouth after i insisted that i *was* really, really depressed. i repeated that back to her and said "i cannot believe you would say that"..it didn't register with her somehow..and then she said a couple of times, "you can feel bad as long as you do what you need to do to move your life ahead.." i said, "but i don't want to feel bad.." and she repeated again that it was ok for me to feel bad. finally i used the suicide card with her. i knew that would do the trick. my dying would devastate her, for some unknown reason. (it's certainly not cause she cares.) i guess if i died i would cut off her main source of naricissistic supply. you'd have to see the interactions with her to believe em..they're so..unbelievable..she just keeps going at me unrelentingly..even through the bathroom door when i lock myself in there. it's crazy, lol.
anyway, thanks for listening...again.:) you guys really mean *a lot* to me. your words in those posts are very powerful to me, and will sustain me. thanks again.:)
amy
poster:alesta
thread:499020
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