Posted by smokeymadison on February 15, 2005, at 14:32:49
In reply to Re: difficult post--homophobics beware, posted by Angielala on February 15, 2005, at 13:30:03
basically, she talked about how she tries to help people and she slipped and used the word "cases". she treats people she wants to help like projects and winds up exhausted and emotionally spent. she was trying to "help" me, but i told her that i would have to be an equal, not a "case". she was really tired tht day and she started crying and talking about how everybody wanted so much from her and how tired she was. now, we both intend to go into social work, and i admire her ability to really get to the core of a problem somebody has and spell it out for them. she has with me. i told her to take some time off and not try and meet new people for a while, including me. it was very hard for me to say it, because i was and am infatuated with her. but i went home and threw away her phone number and vowed not to contact her. that was 5 months ago.
but Sunday night she came up to me, not the other way around. and all the feelings i had 5 months ago came back even stronger. i have been told by a mutual friend that she is too busy to get into a relationship right now. this friend so far won't give me her phone number. so i am trying to prepare to be alone for a while--to leave my boyfriend and not to be with her. i think that she graduates and will move away this May anyway. but i think that i still need to end the relationship w/ my boyfriend. we can't move out of our apartment, but we can move into separate bedrooms. that is the plan so far.
SM
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