Posted by Angel Girl on February 1, 2005, at 15:47:40
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 12:51:59
Yep, believe it or not I am on a mood stabilizer. See how well it works. I've told my pdoc it doesn't work but all she does is up the dosage. Yep, sent me straight into hypomania. I've tried so many of them, I'm not sure there is much left to try. I definitely won't tell her about my hypomania because she will definitely decrease my ADs and I can't have her do that. Depression is my normal state, I can't allow it to get any worse than it already does or I won't be here to talk about it.
I probably despise any form of exercise more than you do. I KNOW I won't do it, even though I should. I don't know what I could do to replace my racing and compulsive thoughts that are harmful for me. I don't even know what I'm interested in anymore, other than music and HOT guys. I don't have to tell you how hard it all is but yet at the same time, it's a very good feeling. If I had somebody to act out my impulses with, I definitely would. I'm not good at self-control. Usually when I'm hypomanic, I'm irritable and ready for a fight but this is the first time in a long time that it was euphoric. I like euphoric, I don't like irritability and hostility because it's not *me*, at least not the *real* me that is buried somewhere deep inside screaming to get out.
I'll give some thought to doing a blog. I LOVE the name of yours. I'll check it out.
Thanks,
AG (who can't even figure out how she feels today, I'm all over the map)
> I was in your shoes about a month ago... so I'm feeling for you... and I also know what you mean about the doc...
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> Are you on a mood stabilizer? Not that it is going to solve anythign today... but jsut wondering for the future.
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> I always get myself into trouble during these times... but what I try to do is do things with my hands... as stupid as they may be... I started glueing broken stained glass onto things... and it worked, until the glue made me light-headed... haha... then I started smoking pot liek a chimney... and while it helped for a bit, it made me even more ancy to do something. So what I ended up doing (and it took everything in me to get me to do this) was to run myself into the ground with jogging. I HATE jogging. But the further I went, the more ticked off I got, and the longer I jogged. Then I actually slept for more than 2 hours.
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> I knwo what you mean about the boards being too quiet too... try doing this... go to blogger.com. Make your own blog (you can write about ANYTHING!) and send the link here... then people will be on your blog and you control it... I did that too, and it helped a lot (http://ramblingsofacrazygirl.blogspot.com)
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> Just a few ideas.
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> BECAREFUL!
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> > sunny
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> > You're confusing me. Turn BP? I'm already BP. I've been waiting for this for a very long time. For once I feel GOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDD. I'm not sure about her not wanting to decrease my ADs, last time I was there I asked for an increase and she turned me down because she didn't want me to go hypomanic. Well guess what pdoc, it happened anyway. LMAO!!! What's so bad about feeling this good? I'm kinda enjoying it really. It's like taking drugs to get high without taking the drugs. LMAO!!! I tried taking some Xanax cuz my heart was racing so much I thought it was going to pound right out of my chest, they put me to sleep but here I am awake once more and just as high. I was supposed to go to the drug store and get my refills that I phoned in, I don't think I should drive, so maybe I'll get them delievered. Only problem is that I'm hungry and there's nothing around here to eat. I wanted to get something to eat when I was going to go to the drugstore but since I don't think driving is so good idea, what am I going to do about eating? Haven't figured that one out yet.
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> > I don't want my pdoc to give me any meds that will take this oh so good feeling away. I'm loving this. I know I will inevitably crash and crash hard but I'll deal with that when it comes.
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> > Thanks for your help though. C ya tomorrow I guess, unless I'm in the abyss then, at which point I might just stay in bed.
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> > AG (who is anything but angelic right now) LMAO!!!
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> > > I'm only worried that it will turn BiPolar on you... Yoyo-ing back and forth will not be healthy for you. She probably won't ease back on the AD's, but she MIGHT add a very mild AP....
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> > > Best wishes only for you- take care tonight, okay?
> > > Be well- I'll chat with you tomorrow,
> > > Sunny10
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