Posted by alesta on December 13, 2004, at 7:57:58
i have nothing, i mean *nothing* to do. i wrote this already on my wordpad but wasn't going to post it, as i felt better after writing it and getting it out. but now i think i will post it anyway.
i bawled my eyes out last night. things are bad, really bad. i don't know if they are ever going to be ok, honestly. things have consistently sucked throughout my life, why would they be ok now?
there's only so much a person can take. i try everything i can, but i'm still in hell. i have nothing to occupy myself but this damn computer. no cable tv, no *coffee* :), no books, no snacks, no friends, NOTHING.
i can clean, but the lack of stimuli in my life makes it hard to be motivated.
this is my current form of hell, can't wait to see the next one.
sorry to be negative. i try not to.:)
amy
poster:alesta
thread:428797
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20041209/msgs/428797.html