Posted by pegasus on December 9, 2004, at 12:31:24
Hello to my lovely babble friends (and strangers). I just wanted to share that I've had an ultrasound, and my baby is a girl. The technician seemed 100% certain. I'm very excited about this, because she will be the first girl in her generation in my family. My mom was really hoping for a girl. My mom loves to sew and it's been ages since she's had a little girl to sew for.
If she'd been a boy, I would be just as excited. I think it's just having a new piece of information about her that has me so pumped up. We also got a lovely ultrasound, where you can see her perfect little profile. She's so amazingly cute! She looks just like a baby! I don't know what I expected, but it seemed like a surprise. I've been working in therapy lately about my thoughts about motherhood, and they seem to be mostly about how motherhood is for other people and I will never be a mom. So maybe seeing a real baby in there is creating some cognitive dissonance with my deeply held notion that I would never be a mom.
I'm in my 6th month now, and still feeling great. My therapist remarked that maybe I should always be pregnant (heaven forbid!) because it seems to be making me so happy and stable. Yay! Not at all what I expected. I was sure that I'd be one of those crabby, weepy pregnant women, or even worse, go completely off the emotional deep end. But apparently that's not in the cards for me. I have also been sure that I'll have severe postpartum depression, considering my history with depression. But maybe I'm learning not to expect anything in particular.
Just wanted to update my old babble buddies, and new babble friends. Hugs to you all.
pegasus
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