Posted by ghost on September 26, 2004, at 8:40:40
In reply to s*icide thoughts when not depressed, posted by deirdrehbrt on September 25, 2004, at 20:10:47
i am obsessed with death, i think. i think about it all the time... how nice it would be if i weren't here any more... how i can do it... what would happen when i did... the little miniscule details (what will happen to my furniture, if my sister will get my car, what my parents would think if they found sex toys or drug paraphernalia... what people would say about me when they found out). hm, maybe i shouldn't go into so much detail in a post.
i think you're right in that they probably never go away completely. if you're inclined to think about it in the first place, it might just be an underlying part of your subconscious that's always there.
i still think about it. a lot. but i'm okay with thinking about it, as long as i don't plan on doing it. it's like it's just another part of my personality, i guess. but there's always that fine line between acting and not acting on it, and when you're already inclined to think about it... i think our fight is harder than the average person's fight, i guess.
ghost
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