Posted by Dinah on September 7, 2004, at 16:13:49
In reply to Re: But how do I fill my life with joy? » Dinah, posted by SLS on September 7, 2004, at 15:27:59
G*d, Scott. I wish I could. I seem to have lost that ability right along with the ability to experience music. I can see the most perfect things and be as unmoved as if I were looking at a box.
What I'm pretty sure of, though, is that that hasn't been a constant state for me for over fifteen years. It *feels* that way right now, but I *know* it can't be so. It's distorted thinking. I know that.
I just deleted a huge chunk of post because it was ridiculously self pityingly and I can't abide myself when I'm like this. I need to avoid myself for a while I think.
I'd be sorry I ever started this self pitying thread, except that it *is* good to see other people sharing their joys.
I'm sorry to be such a total wet squelchy blanket. Ignore my squelchier posts, everyone. I'll try to concentrate on others. That always helps.
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