Posted by fallsfall on August 23, 2004, at 9:15:38
In reply to Re: Fragmentation- A rebirth process, posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 22, 2004, at 23:01:41
I'm so happy for you! Enjoy all of you!
I think you are right about it being a question of collecting pieces of my identity - building my "self". I can understand how you had pieces of identity "stolen".
I'm in a slightly different place, though. I was not abused, but was neglected emotionally from the time I was born (my mother is not capable of understanding emotions and my dad was a workaholic). I'm sure that there are pieces out there that I can pull together, but it seems like my foundation is missing, too. I have heard of therapists "lending their ego" to patients until the patients can construct their own. I feel like I'm in that category.
I have described it like a giant toothpick structure, but we need to repair the bottom (and some sections in the middle). So we have to take the toothpicks out without having the whole structure collapse (meaning sometimes we need to prop it up until we have rebuilt). When I feel like I'm fragmenting it would be like taking out some critical toothpicks and not having anything there to prop the section up. If the structure falls over it will break into so many pieces that I will never figure out how to put them back together.
Thanks for your encouragement! It does help to know that others understand how it feels.
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