Posted by Indie on July 28, 2004, at 10:53:04
In reply to I need help from y'alls..., posted by 64bowtie on July 28, 2004, at 2:51:27
Hey Rod...I don't believe we've met...
As for me, I definately started posting here when I was in dire need of support. I have been reading here for a long time, but never felt that I *needed* the support. I have always had friends, had good jobs, had a good life. But I also have struggled with severe bipolar depression for my entire adult life-and before without diagnosis. It was only when I fell flat on my face, no job, incomplete masters degree and few friends. I started posting here because I DESPERATELY needed people who understand and who could remind my that this will pass. I am now so depressed and hopeless that I can barely move on most days and I cry constantly. I now really wish that I had seen that I have really always needed that support. I wish now that I had started posting before things had gotten soooo bad. I think the support may have helped me to not spiral so far into the blackness. I am almost positive that the support would have stopped me from attempting suicide....I am not sure if I am really answering your question, but yes I definately came here in search and recovery and the support I need to find it.
Is free and happy possible?? Yes!! On my better days I can remember feeling it and I am detirmined to find it again!!
I am reading a book right now called "The Mood Cure" by Julia Ross. It is a great reference for alternative interventions, but the reason I mention it is because she talks about false moods and true moods. True moods are those that are appropriate to your life situation: mad at somebody for standing you up, grief for somebody who died, sad because you lost a friend, etc. False moods are feeling sad all the time with no life events to warrant them, getting angry and "snapping" for no reason, etc.
My point is, you will never be free from "true moods," life deals some hard blows and there will be bad feelings along with them. I believe that you can be free from false moods with the right support, the right medical interventions and alot of inward searching to discover what really causes the bad feelings and what really makes you happy.
I hope that all of that answers your questions...
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