Posted by attoday on July 17, 2004, at 14:33:08
I started doing some research on Lexapro because my Pdoc has made the suggestion that I consider taking a AD to help me. I found this board and I felt so sad because I related to a lot of what other wrote about agrivated depression. I don't know if that is good or bad, but I can no put a few words together with how I feel.
I'm not really sure what is going on with me. I know I suffer from depression. I'm not certain what kind of depression. My life is suffering from this depression that I've experience off and on for a few years now. Currently, I don't feel I enjoy life much anymore. I am scared that I will push away my boyfriend that loves me because of my depression and not wanting to be intimate.
I'm nervous about taking AD medication. I've taken it before and I didn't like the side effects. I took Zoloft 1st, but I was asleep more than I was awake. Then I was switched to Paxil. That felt better to me, but I gained weight, which I am very unhappy about. That is my new obsession...My weight and not being happy with my size. I stopped running and mountain biking because I moved to a new state. But as I read here the other night, this issue is probably a reaction to something else that is going on with me. I don't know exactly how to sort that out and figure it out.
I've been going to a Pdoc for about 5 weeks. I question whether he is helping me. I feel worse now than I did before... probably because I am talking about my feelings and all of these issues that come up day to day and how they relate to my past and feelings.
I don't know what else to do for myself to get better and enjoy life. I am working on codependency issues as well. I feel I am at the point where I should try meds again.
Ok.. well...
Thanks for reading... and I hope everyone is having a nice saturday.
poster:attoday
thread:367171
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