Posted by B2chica on July 16, 2004, at 12:55:12
In reply to Re: I Witnessed A Crime » B2chica, posted by SandyWeb on July 15, 2004, at 19:03:18
Honey, you deal with What you can, When you can. Noone can ask Anymore of you.(change ask to Expect)
the regret you have is just fear. You are right, you did do the right thing, cuz it was coming from inside you. and if your police are anything like ours, it could be weeks before the paperwork even gets across their desks!
-i did want to ask if you are seeing anyone (professionally of course, that wasn't me hitting on you ;)
but if you are this is a Great thing to discuss with your T.I was recently in a Very similar situation. And it was a topic with my T for a couple weeks, he did help me step through a few fears. I was with someone and did them a favor and she betrayed me by taking me on a wild goose chase that ended up at a Major Drug dealers home (so she could pick up her stash -to sell of course!!) well, i was Finally able to tell my T about this and even though i Knew i needed to turn this information in i was SCARED TO DEATH!! cuz of some past experiences, and this person knew where i lived and such- and not necessarily from her but others involved would have killed or harmed for kicks, let alone cuz of a narc.
Finally i got up the nerve, went to a public payphone and called crimestoppers. this shows what a p@$$y i am but i even wore a disguise to the payphone -Just incase there were cameras!! anyway i told them all the information i had on this dealer and the bigger dealer (however i did not involve the "so called friend's" name.) that just didn't feel right.
maybe i should have, maybe not. but the point was i Finally did what i knew in my gut i had to do. i did my part and the rest was in their hands. And luckily i've since parted with that friend. We just never called one another since that incident. (lucky for me)
-ANYWAY, i just wanted you to know that i Understand a fear, and fighting within yourself of what was the "right" thing to do vs. protecting yourself from an intense fear. You should be more proud, you did yours quickly. it took me two months before i reported mine. But i figured had i turned it in right away, they would have known FOR SURE who did it. I just couldn't risk my husband or my home. and Yes paranoia runs high for me...
and you have a GREAT weekend sweetie, and just enjoy it knowing you've conquered a fear. You Beat IT! don't even think about anything else. just enjoy this. OK?...OK!B2c.
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