Posted by karen_kay on May 3, 2004, at 18:55:28
In reply to KK, how do stay so positive?, posted by rainyday on May 3, 2004, at 18:01:59
you honestly made my chest hurt with your post. thank you dear for that. truly. you can't know what it means to me. i wish i could honestly and sincerely tell you what your post did to me. the best i can do is to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. and i do mean that.
i don't know how i manage to stay positve. i try to think of things in a way so that i don't allow them to bring me down, yet sometimes they do. honestly, i don't have a great relationship with my old man. and it bothers me. and i wonder if it's real or fake. my positiity. i wonder alot if i'm a fraud, because if i send cards they help cheer me up, so does that mean i'm doing it for me. yes, i've discussed this at length with bubba, but he's never really convinced me. i just honestly love people. i really do. and it really hurts me to see people hurting. i'd rather be hurting myeslf than to see someone else hurt. even strangers. but, back to the original point of my story. about being positive... i just try to look at things from the other person's perspective.
and when i'm down, i still post. and i still try to talk to people, but i regularly don't answer my phone or return emails. and i don't go the grocery, however i have an oldman who lights that fire and makes me. and i have a sister who drives two hours and hauls my butt out of bed to take me on a road trip. i guess that since i have a wonderful support system, it helps tremendously. and babble helps so very much as well.
and rainy, you are very supportive. look at how much you have helped jyl. you've helped in her return to babble. you've helped her to see how very wonderful she is. now my friend, that's a very amazing ability. if only i had that. you are very special indeed. i'd hate it if you thought otherwise. you give back dear. you do more than your fair share. and i'm sure you do so much in real life too. look at what you are doing in your community! i honestly am astounded! that's so very wonderful! i wish i did more for my community. it hurts me that i don't get involved. and i don't even have an excuse. but you are amazing for your contribution. and not just here, but in life too. please, don't ever doubt that.i know when i first started here (how long have you been here by the way?) i was more interested in asking questions, as i was unsure about being supportive. i just didn't want to jump in and didn't 'know my place' also, i didn't know the people and wasn't sure how they would take me. and it still happens today. for instance, i wanted to post to scott and tell him i was thinking about him and his situation and to hang in there. but, i jst was unsure how to word it, you know? how it would be taken. now, i'll go do it. but, it sill happens. it itme, you'll find your 'place' and jump right in dear. don't worry.
but please, don't ever doubt how very wonderful you are. or your contribution here and elsewhere. i'm honestly amazed. truly. and again, thank you. you can't know how much it means to me. honestly. thank you again dear... sorry this is so long and i hope your eyes don't go buggy, but i guess i just had to 'get it all out'??
poster:karen_kay
thread:342957
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