Posted by DaisyM on April 13, 2004, at 13:32:49
I know I don't post over here a lot but I am pretty sure if I posted this on Psychological I'd get bumped so I might as well start it here...
My husband is really, really sick. He has two major illnesses but he has been doing well for over 3 months. Suddenly, things have gone south again, he caught a cold and that set off his COPD, which made his retina hemorrage...and they can't fix it without surgery, which he can't have until he can breathe laying down...
I feel like screaming, "I can't handle this anymore." Instead, I make plans, talk to doctors, keep working, take the kids to school and pay the bills. I'm so calm on the outside it is frightening. I just started to pull myself up out of my own black hole and I feel it swallowing me up again for completely different reasons.
I feel guilty as He** for not wanting to deal with his stuff...and I'm worried that I just can't. And I can't tell anyone this because that makes me the "bad wife." After all, I'm not the one who is sick.
I just need support and prayers. And maybe humor, which usually helps.
Daisy
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