Posted by rainyday on April 5, 2004, at 11:27:53
I read kid47's thread earlier and his words are so eloquent. I feel a little like a literary elephant.
What a yucky weekend. Cried everyday, wanted to escape. Had lots of social obligations (family, friends, meals, etc.) and I was SUCH a wet blanket. Apart from family, no one else was in the loop as to my present State. I felt like a fool ducking people's eyes, wearing my sunglasses indoors so you couldn't see how hard I had been crying. I feel like a total social failure. Why can't I just suck it up and pretend that everything is OK, just for a while?? New AD's have not taken their full effect yet and I can't sleep. It's taking 2 hours to get to sleep. I have gone through entire CD's and I know the sound of the rainforest and the ocean by heart. Can even sing along with whale songs. *SIGH* I am so tired of having a stiff upper lip.
Which needs to be waxed.
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