Posted by kamikazi_ladybug on April 4, 2004, at 23:22:06
In reply to Re: *SI trigger thread* *Sensative Topic* *Help* » kamikazi_ladybug, posted by fallsfall on April 4, 2004, at 10:43:58
First Happy b'day Tabitha!!
Well, when I first starting SIing I was about 14 and don't really know why I did it. I guess I felt that I wasn't really loved by my parents. This was a way for me to vent my frustrations. My mom had a drug problem, dad was an alchohlic. Now, I love my dad to tears, and mom is out of my life. As I got older I would find ways to SI and felt that it "had" to be done. I didn't want to die, I didn't want to committ suicide. Does this make sense? I just wanted to si. I'm 31 now and it seems silly to be writing this. I am so ashamed that I've fallen back into this. I guess maybe deep down I'm still angry. Something else to work through :).
Thank you for responding and caring.
KL
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