Posted by Dr. Bob on March 30, 2004, at 0:30:33
In reply to Redirected Lexaproers, posted by jlynne on March 13, 2004, at 1:31:16
EM
Posted by Mrs. C on March 27, 2004, at 22:19:15
In reply to Re: not doing well...kathryn edna... » Mrs. C, posted by wantinfo on March 27, 2004, at 10:41:03
Hi EM, Good. Have fun tonight. Mrs. C
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re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble
Posted by trucker on March 27, 2004, at 22:27:57
In reply to re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble » Hoping, posted by lil' jimi on July 11, 2003, at 12:09:18
WHERE IS EVERYBODY. I HAVE BEEN GONE WAY TOO LONG!
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re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble
Posted by Mrs. C on March 27, 2004, at 22:41:02
In reply to re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble, posted by trucker on March 27, 2004, at 22:27:57
Trucker, I am not sure who you are looking for. When I first started on this board five months ago, I don't remember seeing your name. How long have you been gone? How are you doing on Lex? Tell us more about yourself? Mrs. C
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Trucker . . .
Posted by jlynne on March 27, 2004, at 22:41:46
In reply to re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble, posted by trucker on March 27, 2004, at 22:28:30
Trucker, I guess they all got well and left:~) How long have you been gone? Will you settle for those of us who are here now??
...jlynne
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re: Depression Screaming Fest Online » trucker
Posted by trucker on March 27, 2004, at 22:48:16
In reply to re: Depression Screaming Fest Online » lil' jimi, posted by trucker on August 20, 2003, at 23:05:45
WAYNE AND JIM WHERE ARE YOU???
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Re: Trucker . . . » jlynne
Posted by trucker on March 27, 2004, at 22:56:26
In reply to Trucker . . ., posted by jlynne on March 27, 2004, at 22:41:46
I SPECT SO! I AM ONE OF THOSE HIT AND RUN CHARLIES. I HIT FOR AWHILE THEN I GET BUSIER THAN A ONE LEGGEG MAN IN A HINY KICKIN CONTEST AND YA WON'T HEAR FROM ME FOR AWHILE I HAVE BEEN GONE SINCE AUG OF LAST YEAR MAYBE. I FOUND A POST 8/20/03
TRUCKER--
re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble
Posted by Mrs. C on March 27, 2004, at 23:03:25
In reply to re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble » Mrs. C, posted by trucker on March 27, 2004, at 22:52:23
Trucker, Wayne sounds familiar but has not been here in quite a while. I have no idea who Jim is. Sorry. I am glad the lex has been working for you. Hope you find the guys you are looking for. Mrs.C
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re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble
Posted by sexylexy on March 27, 2004, at 23:42:12
In reply to re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble, posted by trucker on March 27, 2004, at 22:27:57
Trucker,
A lot of times when people start feeling better they get more involved in other things and move off the site. New people pop up everyday. I was new in December and now am getting to be an oldie...hehe. I love this site and my lex family, good luck and welcome back.
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Re: Lexy » sexylexy
Posted by jlynne on March 28, 2004, at 2:02:26
In reply to Re: Lexy, posted by sexylexy on March 28, 2004, at 1:03:28
Thanks for the encouragement Lexy. I wish I could blame it on periods, but I don't have them anymore. I went through menopause several years ago.
The tears have subsided for now, and that makes me hopeful. Tomorrow is supposed to be warm and sunny here, and that should help to improve my outlook considerably.
Thank you again for the post:) ...jlynne
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Re: Lexy
Posted by mystic on March 28, 2004, at 6:51:42
In reply to Re: Lexy, posted by sexylexy on March 28, 2004, at 1:03:28
Lexy....It is sooooo good to hear your words...You just cant help yourself from helping others even with everything going on with yourself and school..You are truely an exceptional person...Take care...Mystic
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Re: Lex Fam (please read) » sexylexy
Posted by KathrynLex on March 28, 2004, at 11:40:02
In reply to Lex Fam (please read), posted by sexylexy on March 26, 2004, at 20:29:14
Hi Lexy,
Good luck on your thesis. Please come back to the board from time to time and let us know how you are doing.
It's been so wonderful having you here. You'll be missed, but I wish you continued success with Lexapro and hope everything goes well for you.
K.
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re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble
Posted by trucker on March 28, 2004, at 12:20:23
In reply to re: Searching for Specific Information on pBabble, posted by sexylexy on March 27, 2004, at 23:42:12
i hear ya and thanks for the welcome back. i always thought that wayne and jim would be here, guess they moved on hope for the better.
trucker
--Re: Lexy » jlynne
Posted by trucker on March 28, 2004, at 12:36:12
In reply to Lexy, posted by jlynne on March 28, 2004, at 0:19:31
you say tears (and yes this is personal) but what are the tears about? it helps to talk to someone about them, esp if you don't have to worry about others (where you are) knowing the problem... its like being to close to the forest to see the trees and then the other thing is if there is a sence of danger, we can some times see it before it is harmful... plus we are your own personal sounding board... think about it. we are here to help..
trucker
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Hey, Trucker . . .
Posted by jlynne on March 28, 2004, at 21:58:03
In reply to Re: Lexy » jlynne, posted by trucker on March 28, 2004, at 12:36:12
I have been dealing with depression most of my life (I am 54); major breakdown in my 20's, in/out of therapy, tried every med available, etc. Had been doing ok without anything for the last five years.
Then my husband of 17yrs left me for a younger woman last July; the divorce was final in November. I was crying less and less until after the holidays; that's when the tears began to have a life of their own (you know . . . the gut-wrenching, teeth-gnashing, can't-go-to-work-today kind?). . . what is it about the holidays, anyway? Well, that's when I asked my doc for an A/D. I started with 10mg Lex in early Feb.
After the 5th week at 10mg, I crashed; the tears and despair came back full-force. My doc had me up to 15mg then, and it helped. That's around the same time I started posting on this board.
The other night (night before last?) I started feeling weepy again, and the ache in my chest was coming back . . . I thought I was crashing again. But I think I have made it through this one (knock on wood). I am hesitating going to 20mg because the s/e's haven't eased up yet from the last increase.
I know that the tears are coming from much deeper than just the pain of my divorce - this is my 4th (but my longest marriage). But, basically, that is the story of what triggered it this time.
Now it's your turn! (((smiles)))
...jlynne
P.S. I don't get suicidal anymore; I've lived long enough to know that I can get through this:~)
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Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » jlynne
Posted by trucker on March 28, 2004, at 23:02:53
In reply to Hey, Trucker . . ., posted by jlynne on March 28, 2004, at 21:58:03
raped at age three, beatin for it after wards by mommy dearest, was left continually with the baby raper as a baby sitter, before dad could come in the house mother would run in rip our pants down and beat us if are butts were red. (which could have come from poor fitting clothes, not rincing well when washing, not wiping well when pottying, or i could of been raped again...) 3yrs old, gee i guesss i brought it on my self like mommy dearest said i did right! i made it thru that tried suiside with pills, and i even slit my wrists infront of the s.o.b. and told him he'd be fu--ing a courpse. just got beat that day... then i realised i could beat this if i only out smarted him and or mommy too. i wet the bed, niether one of them liked that. it worked up until the only protection i had, if ya want to call it that (daddy) died. i was age twelve and at the murcy of them two jerks. (mommy and the baby raper) it was like flowers in the attic. she left us with the baby raper and went off to get another "job" which looking at the records now she didn't need she just did it to get away from us girls. i beleive in my heart of hearts that she had us only to trap daddy. well i made it to driving age and wound up graduating living out of my 72 nova. and i began driving those damn trucks so i could have a roof over my head,food in my belly, clothes on my back... i hated it but being raped waas worse so i took the lesser of the two evils... well i got married for the third time and my back was broken due to a rock slide that the truck hit. and i had to fight to walk again. i got back to walking after dragging my left leg for 1 1/2 years and then became pregnant... i thought finally i would have someone to love me!!!! i carried him almost to term and went into labor , by the time i got to the hospital no heart beat, and the best thing after all those rotton little tricks that "LIFE" has to offer my damn breasts engorged with milk.of course i was driving truck agin in six weeks after childbirth... since i wasn't a mother anymore...
YES LIFE WHAT A BEAUTIFUL CHOISE.. SHE TOLD ME ALL MY LIFE SHE WAS USING BIRTH CONTROL WHEN I WAS CONCEIVED. THAT SHE DIDN'T WANT ME. YA LIFE!
i guess this evning isn't a good one for me. i sick and i tired. and the thought of what that woman took from me, and alloud to be done to me angers me... i feel like a cross between "a child called it" and "flowers in the attic" to books that fit into my life well. both about abbuse..
trucker--
Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » trucker
Posted by jlynne on March 29, 2004, at 0:17:17
In reply to Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » jlynne, posted by trucker on March 28, 2004, at 23:02:53
. . . I had to ask, huh? [Just kidding]
What a living hell you went through (still going through?). I am angry at your mother, too. I am angry at all mothers who allow things like that to happen to their children. But, mostly, I am sad for the children; sad for us. And I am sad that you had to lose your only child. I can't imagine what that must have been like for you.
My family has a very large history of sexual and physical abuse, too. Each of my parents had eleven siblings, and it was everywhere.
My dad started in on me with the sexual stuff when I wasn't much more than a baby . . . my mom was there, too, but my memory of what she did is unclear. My sister remembers more than I do. They stopped the sexual abuse (of me, anyway) before I started grade school, but I'm not sure when. I just know that they were f'd up, and now I am, too.
My brother had it worst - mom and dad both beat him badly all through his childhood; (I would hide in the corner and cry during that) I remember his leg bleeding one time. And, like your mother, ours made it very clear that my brother was "unplanned". Then my mom started "taking naps" with him when he was around 16yrs old. Yeah, life can be ugly, eh?
Oh, yeah . . . my husbands. First one had an unnatural "affection" for animals. Second one was an alcoholic, committed suicide. Third one had been my therapist for several years after my breakdown - f'ng weirdo! Fourth one . . . I really thought we would grow old(er) together; guess he had other plans.
You said that tonight isn't a good one for you . . . do you have good ones?? It's hard to bring back all those memories; is that part of why you're not so good tonight? From your first posts, I got the impression that you were dealing with life fairly well. How are you really doing?
I'm glad that you are here - even if you won't be here long.
(((HUGS)))
...jlynne
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Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » jlynne
Posted by trucker on March 29, 2004, at 9:32:49
In reply to Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » trucker, posted by jlynne on March 29, 2004, at 0:17:17
WELL I HAD BEEN DOING WELL TILL I WEENED BACK ON MY MEDS INSTEAD OF 20MG I DROPPED TO 10MG I'LL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN. PLUS IT IS THE ANIVERSARY DATE OF WHEN MY ONLY SON SHOULD HAVE BBEN BORN.. THE ACTUALLY DATE HE WAS BORN IS ROUGH AND THE DATE HE WAS SUOPPOSED TO BE BORN IS ROUGH TOO. HOLIDAYS. YA THINK OF WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN. THEN YA ALSO THINK OF HOW MANY BEASTS THERE ARE OUT THERE WHO ARE ABLE TO HAVE CHILDREN, AND YA WONDER WHAT THE HELL YA EVER DID TO DESERVE THIS "LIFE" I PROBABLY WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN A GOOD MOTHER ANYWAY. MAYBE ITS BETTER THIS WAY, I DON'T KNOW. ITS JUST CRUEL TO GET THAT CLOSE AND BE ROBBED...
TRUCKER
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Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » trucker
Posted by jlynne on March 29, 2004, at 13:25:45
In reply to Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » jlynne, posted by trucker on March 29, 2004, at 9:32:49
I wish I knew what to say . . . I'm sorry you are in pain. Do you have anyone around to lean on? How old would your little boy be now?
Do you know how to get to the Psycho-Social board? I have a feeling Dr. Bob is going to re-direct these messages soon (he wants to keep this board for medicine-type posts only). I will post a message on Psycho-Social for you, and we can start a new thread over there, okay?
I am at work, so I may not get back to you till this evening.
...jlynne
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RE:...Hey Mag
Posted by mystic on March 29, 2004, at 21:27:47
In reply to Re: Hey, Trucker . . . » jlynne, posted by trucker on March 29, 2004, at 18:16:47
Hey Mag..How you doing girlfriend??...Are you going to talk to your Dr tomorrow about upping your dosage??>.how are you feeling today??..mondays are usually tough for people tomorrow is going to be better...Trust me it does take time and I think that you really need to increase...Keep me posted and i'm thinking of you...Mystic
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RE::: EM
Posted by mystic on March 29, 2004, at 21:30:50
In reply to Re: New to Lexapro and feeling awful » jjana, posted by worrywort on May 13, 2003, at 12:43:06
Hey EM...how are you doing today??..are you doing better on your increase???...I hope that you finally get some relief you deserve it..Hang in there and try to make sure you get plenty of sleep and eat well...Keep me posted...Mystic
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RE:: Hey jlynne
Posted by mystic on March 29, 2004, at 21:33:35
In reply to RE:...Hey Mag, posted by mystic on March 29, 2004, at 21:27:47
Hey Jlynne...How goes the battle was thinking about you today and hoping that you are feeling ok...Hope that your monday was good and the meds are helping better than they did this weekend...Take care and know that you are being thought of...Mystic
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Mystic
Posted by jlynne on March 29, 2004, at 23:11:09
In reply to RE:: Hey jlynne, posted by mystic on March 29, 2004, at 21:33:35
Thanks, Mystic. . . I am feeling better today. The s/e's have been almost tolerable, and I am thinking that maybe they will be [tolerable] soon.
Today was sunny and warm here again, but I was stuck inside catching up on phone calls and record-keeping [you always pay for your time off, eh?] I get to be in the field most of the day tomorrow [but they are forecasting rain, wouldn't you know?].
Oh, well, it was worth it to have the grandkids here. The little one (2-yr old) kept hugging me and saying "I yike Gamma!" And the older ones got along so well; they even pitched in and helped me with some yard work. We filled that second bin that I mentioned a couple weeks ago:~) They are all such blessings.
I was thinking about you today, too:~)
((((Smiles))))
...jlynne
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RE:...Hey Mag » mystic
Posted by Magdalena on March 29, 2004, at 23:56:59
In reply to RE:...Hey Mag, posted by mystic on March 29, 2004, at 21:27:47
hey Mystic, yeah i am doing alright, its true i have been having anticipation anxiety almost every monday since i started the meds, its also cause i work nights on monday so all day its like im waiting to go to work:S i am going to the docs tomorrow to up the dose, my appt is at 12:45pm.
thanks for thinking of me, how are you doing today? are you feeling better yet? you had an increase a little while ago right? have you adjusted yet?
talk to you tomorrow.
Mag
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