Posted by zeugma on March 28, 2004, at 11:04:35
In reply to Re: Asperger's-like feelings, is this DP or meds, posted by Saltmarsh Rose on March 27, 2004, at 20:15:59
those characteristics sound like avoidant personality disorder to me (my therapist concurred on my self-diagnosis with this one) but I think it's all a part of 'autistic spectrum disorders.' A lot of my friends don't understand my need to isolate, and I have realized that they enjoy socializing because they're not constantly overwhelmed with 'inner disorder.' They can look at things a little more casually because they have less agitation. I seem to need a tremendous amount of time waiting for my agitation to go down before I feel like I've returned to what passes for 'normal' for me, after a social interaction.
People tend to find me either aloof and reserved, or abjectly anxious (that's how I am around people when i first meet them). Klonopin helps a little with the anxiety but not to the point where I don't dread casual social interaction. I am taking my therapist's advice and reading a lot of literature and listening to music: It doesn't calm me down, really (I have to get up every couple of minutes and pace, plus i clap my hands in a really weird way which makes me sure that I have some kind of CNS disturbance not too far from autism) but it at least gives me something else to think about and I am less depressed so far this weekend than i have been in the past. But I feel like at any moment I could be overwhelmed with the depressive thoughts.
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