Posted by fallsfall on March 13, 2004, at 13:58:12
In reply to *Was* in therapy » tinydancer, posted by Susan J on March 13, 2004, at 13:24:01
I have found that suicidal thoughts have a purpose for me. My guess is that they have a purpose for you, too, but it could be a different purpose.
When I start thinking of killing (or hurting) myself it is usually because there is some stressor in my life that I feel is out of control. Suicidal (or para-suicidal) actions are something that I *can* control - so in that way thinking about them is comforting for me. In addition, when I tell my therapist about the feelings, then I know that I will have his attention - and he will know that something serious is going on.
I've started trying to be pre-emtive about this. When I feel things getting stressful, I try to talk about it. If I can get people to understand the issue when I talk about it then I don't have the "need" to resort to suicidal thoughts. It has taken many years to get to this place.
I would suggest that you make an appointment with the therapist you were seeing. The hour it takes to see her will be much less than that productivity that you are losing due to the stress and the thoughts.
Please take care of yourself.
P.S. As an ex-workaholic, I do feel the need to plea for a more balanced life for you... Substitute a couple of fun activities for some of those work hours...
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