Posted by Ilene on March 5, 2004, at 16:08:08
In reply to I've decided I'm just plain wierd, posted by socialdeviantjeff on March 5, 2004, at 1:31:52
> I can hardly function. My future is a Goth cliche'. My pathology is very complicated. I react adversely and paradoxically to so many meds that avenue is nearly closed. Hell, I just don't know what to do. One minute Im fine, the next I'm a wreck. I feel like all of humanity either hates me or is afraid of me.
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Strange how things can change so quickly. You must save your reasonable moments for when you post here. You don't seem either hateful or frightening. You seem rather nice.> And this hardly bothers me. I feel like Hannibal Lecter without the whole killing thing. I guess it does bother me on some level; I'm writing about it and trying to change although the harder I try the more impossible it gets.
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> I'm still dealimg with changing my expectations. Not easy but making headway. I just worry about the future. I guess it's like my grandma said once, "I will need to find a lady with money and a trade." Sucks but oh well. Of course, finding anyone at all is just about impossible with my problems.
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A lady with money and a trade? What does she trade . . . and for how much money?But you have a daughter, so you must have found someone at least once.
> I know this all sounds like despair but actuall I don't think I care enough to realy despair. Anyway, I hope you guys are doing OK.
I'm glad you're not despairing. Do you still have a job? Maybe if you could imagine that customers were Babblers in disguise you would find it easier.
I.
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