Posted by karen_kay on February 19, 2004, at 22:35:42
I miss you, kinda. Like you miss that penny in your shoe. Or when you miss the last goal at a hockey game. I sorta have a feeling you're avoiding me, but it could just be paranoia. And, maybe I'd rather you avoid me, because you seem to smell like trouble. And I wonder, "Did I do something wrong?" But, I second-guess myself and come to the conclusion that I'm never wrong. So, it must be you. And if you want to avoid me, fine! I won't plead. I won't beg. But, I think I'm too good for you and your rather dramatic attempts to gain attention by not posting anyway. And maybe I said I miss you, but I'm a liar you know! I'll admit that, but it's not a fault I have, just a nice ploy to defend myself. Did you forget that I don't have any faults? I certainly didn't. Maybe you're the one with the wretched memory, "Not I" said Karen. So, I'm not asking you to talk to me. I'm not asking you for anything, as if you would provide it. Because all I want is to talk to you, but if you're so bold as to think that you're above me and my standards, then I'll stop asking. I'll just go back to my cigarette and forget this conversation ever took place. I don't need you or your means of distraction and disentegration. I won't have it, you hear me? As if you've ever listened in the past. But, I suppose I'll sit silently in the corner, with my friend Joe Camel, waiting to see what happens. And maybe I'll move on with my life, or perhaps I won't. But, I suppose it's no concern of yours, as you don't even bother to talk to me anymore. So, I'll go. And sit silently by myself, once again. It'll be hard to get over you, but I guess it's a lesson learned. That's fine. I don't care. Couldn't care less, in fact. I'll be fine without you. You'll see. One day I'll do great things and when you see my smiling face on TV, you'll hear me say, "Well, it's no thanks to kidd." So there, you'll see. One day.
Sincerely,
Karen
PS. I want all of my things back, including CD's. I have a list you know, as I do have OCPD traits.
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