Posted by Susan J on December 18, 2003, at 12:32:45
In reply to A Bad Day, posted by Ilene on December 17, 2003, at 21:17:49
Hello,
> I've been suicidal all day. Not unusual, but I'm losing my patience with life, esp. since I'll be 50 next year and I've been depressed for most of it. My pdoc/therapist always wants to know what makes me feel better or worse, and I hardly ever have an answer for her. Just wake up that way.
<<I'm so sorry it hurts so badly right now. I think trying out a new med is a great idea! And if you have concerns about your particular doc prescribing it, is there any way for you to get a 2nd opinion?>
> I spent most of October in bed. If it weren't for my kids I would've killed myself. I've been sick off and on since then; not as bad, but I'm terrified of a relapse. Terrified.
<<God I know how that feels. It just makes me thing a med change could be very helpful, too. And a piece of advice my boss gave me that I keep trying to follow, live in the moment, don't fear the future or dwell on the past. Only in the moment. Like, try to enjoy that nap you're taking, or take comfort from watching a favorite TV show or listening to a CD. They are little things, but concentrate on the pleasure you get (even if very small) from those activities.Hang in there. I'm thinking of you.
Susan
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