Posted by Karen_kay on December 12, 2003, at 16:42:29
In reply to out of hope, posted by lepus on December 12, 2003, at 16:00:36
I understand what you are going through. I am 25 and diagnosed with BP I, along with several personality disorders to boot. It isn't fun. I think the first step towards getting things stable is medication. I know I tried so many different types of meds before actually finding the right one that worked for me (which happens to be Topamax not that I'm plugging or anythign :) But, it took about 4 years to find the right cocktail. And it was very frustrating. Do you have any type of insurance? If not you can find out about programs in your area that help with meds and doctor bills. Once you get your moods straightened out, I really think you will feel a lot better. You won't be perfect, I fight with that every day, but it helps a lot.
I suspect that right now you may be depressed? The meds will help with depression and hypomania. I'm sorry that you feel hopeless. I know exactly what you are going through. I suffered through it too. But, I can't tell you the difference that medication has made in my life. It has made it possible for me to continue with school. I'll be graduating in a year and a semester. There's no reason you can't follow your dreams as well. I think that everyone feels this way too. I know that I still do, even while on medication. But, it isn't nearly as often or severe. Don't beat yourself up over the past. Look to the future. Another thing you may want to check into is therapy. Are you seeing a therapist? They help a lot, especially when you are depressed. Take care of yourself. I'm thinking about you and sending hugs your way.
Karen
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