Posted by lisa1000 on December 7, 2003, at 10:49:41
In reply to Re: confused, posted by sarita0001 on December 6, 2003, at 22:26:09
Here's my situation: I'm 18. I live at home. Right now i'm in cegep, a two year thing in between high school and university, and i'm planning to go away next september. I've got a best friend, and several close friends, but my problem is that i just don't feel like I belong anywhere. It just wouldn't make a big difference if i was there or not. They don't need me like I need them. I've felt this way for a while, but i've never really done anything about it. There's no one around me that has ever experienced anything remotly close to this, and that's why i'm scared to do anything about it. I'm afraid that should i tell me best friend that i feel this way, she won't take me seriously - neither will anyone else. I'm good at disguising how i feel but i'm just so tired of being sad all the time. My worst fear is that i actually get the courage to tell someone, and i get shot down. I don't even know what i would tell them. I know that being depressed is a very loose term, but i'm unclear as to how else to refer to it. I don't sleep well anymore, i feel sad whenever i'm by myself and i've thought about suicide but don't thikn that i'll actually go through with it. The last thing i want is to kill myself, but i just need an escape from how i'm living now. Thanks for listening. - Lisa
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