Posted by Waterlily on November 22, 2003, at 8:49:10
In reply to Nobody to really talk to, posted by socialdeviantjeff on November 19, 2003, at 22:40:49
" But even now I wonder. What's more selfish of me? Put them through one really bad moment and they hopefully get over it, or spend a lifetime being a financial and emotional burden to everyone for certain."
Let me assure you, it would not be one realy bad moment - it would be months and years of terrible moments that your family would have to deal with. By leaving them, you'd basically be telling them that you don't love them enough to stay with them. I understand your pain as I am burdened with depression as well. It is sometimes hard to believe that my family benefits by my life, but I am not depressed all of the time. Also, I know what it's like being on the other side of the situation.My dad committed s.uicide (computer will delete that word if I spell it correctly) when I was 14 years old. He was a depressed alcoholic who put us into financial debt with his midlife crisis. The man was not easy to love. As much trouble as he was, I did love him. His death was a terrible blow to the entire family and it has impacted my life forever. Not a day goes by that I don't wish he hadn't opted out of life.
There is hope. Find it, wherever it is. If not for yourself, for your daughter.
poster:Waterlily
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