Posted by Sabina on November 17, 2003, at 3:10:05
In reply to Re: I'm not worthy of your envy » Sabina, posted by tabitha on November 17, 2003, at 1:09:13
...and i'm working on a grid so's i can move about freely and clear proper like when i go in tomorrow. i'd just torch the stuff where it sits, but it's attached to the house, don'cha know.
no, really. my problem is that i get too hung up on minutiae. i need to learn how to play it fast and loose. an example of my style: i found a box of ceramic glazes and suddenly i'm consumed with a desire to paint tiles. oh, a new backsplash for the kitchen would be incredible! i'll bet the community college would fire them for me. then i can take a class at home depot about how to install the tiles myself!
that's ridiculous, dear...you're supposed to be cleaning today, *not* painting. oh...uh, okay. so i sit there on the cement with the huge box of glazes for the next 45 minutes *rediscovering* what colors i've got and mentally planning what colors i want to buy for my next project under the pretense of "organizing" by throwing away the old and/or empty pots. when i was a kid i would have been in so much trouble for getting distracted; but i'm an adult on topamax and that's a good enough reason for my inner disciplinarian.
all kidding aside, you really have been an inspiration to me. even before your sabbatical, when you were talking about organizing books one day, i remember thinking, lordy, i'm lucky to have matching shoes on half the time. i think i'm finally feeling more motivated than i have been in well over a year now. it's been terrible, because i *knew* i wasn't lazy but i still found myself just throwing things into closets and shutting the doors. what's worse, i would agonize over doing it. when i would have trouble sleeping at night, i would think about my cluttered closets and how unlike me it was to do that and how ashamed it made me feel and oh, the bad feng shui going on up in my abode! still, i just was-not-able-to-do-anything-about-it. of course, a lot of the problem stemmed from dealing with the pain from fibromyalgia, but my flare-ups are being managed much better now through proper rest and physical therapy. now, suddemly, i feel like my goals for the house may be attainable...but it's going to be a lot of work!
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