Posted by kara lynne on August 7, 2003, at 23:21:04
In reply to Re: He emailed me back. » kara lynne, posted by fallsfall on August 7, 2003, at 21:56:39
Ok, will you come?
You're very optimistic-- 1,2 or 3 people? I'm lucky if I get to one! And even then I have to be up from morbidly depressed and conjure up enough energy to make it happen.
You're right, and I appreciate you telling me this more than I can say. It's exactly what I need to keep telling myself. I have to make it through this period so I can get strong.
I also have to face a lot of dependency issues. Very difficult for me. I have never been a full fledged grown up. I'm not good at this.
Things like trying to hang the damn tension curtain rod 57 times and not being able to make it work ,and feeling like a complete idiot with sores on her hands for doing it.
Things like that, and dinner, might be taken care of or at least paid for if I were with him. But that's about all. Really. That would be about all. Except for minimal physical contact, which I have to admit I miss so much it's tempting to go back for crumbs. The occasional hug. Surely I can find more than the occasional hug...? But in the meantime I have none. Things like leaning in together at the movies, I miss that. We did that at the beginning, and even sometimes near the end.
Wanna go bowling?
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