Posted by Ame Sans Vie on August 4, 2003, at 13:37:17
In reply to Re: Since I'm new, some more info on me..., posted by lostsailor on August 4, 2003, at 13:03:34
> Hi there,
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> I have read quite a few of you posts on PS and am amazed at you knowledge of not just treatment regimes and medications, but all the receptor sites they impact and stimulate or disinhibit….ect.Thank you very much. :-) There was quite a long period of time that I didn't have anything to do *but* study neurochemistry and psychopharmacology... an agoraphobe with internet access can be a dangerous thing, lol.
> I , too, when young and would love to have had a school authority recommend to my parents that I need an evaluation of sorts. I look back and remember constant social anxiety and possibly not quiet episcopes of panic. The funny thing is, at that point, I was able to mask it all very well. When younger I played ‘cute”—a tiny eccentric.
lol, that's so funny, because I tried to do the same thing... pull off the whole "cute" thing, I mean.
> During my teens, and early 20’s, like you, I experimented with illicit drugs. Actually they were, also like you, not as a musician but one who “followed” other musicians around the country thru late high-school and college, not only socially acceptable, but almost required in terms of bonding.
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> When, in my mid 20’s, I talked to my family doctor about everything after my mom had some heart problems, he began treatment with an ssri and xanax…not long after, I was referred to my pdoc—luckily the only one, aside from a couple of second opinions, as he and I have created a very good relationship with him and tried all the available cocktails at hand too. He read thru my illict drug history on my first appointment and focused mainly on the “calming” substances I reported using. I was amazed when he thought aggressive bezo use with an ssri (at that point I was diagnosed with GAD, panic disorder w/ agoraphobia, and major depression—which has now changed to Bi-polar disorder but “totally” (I still get depressed occasionally, but manic episodes are basically non-existent), as too often illicit drug use suspends trial of medication that can really help when used in a more clinical range I am sure you know.
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> My panic attacks are now rare, as is my major depressive episodes, but my social anxiety still over rides things and keeps me almost derailed despite meds, cbt, psychotherapy et al.
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> I too can write much on paganism, as many of my old friends were deeply involved in crystals, herbs for healing, cleansings ect, but though my beliefs are more Judeo-Christian but spiced with eastern tradition and the “new age” medicine of former friends—which I assume, in contest, are very similar to paganism.
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> Again, welcome to social babble and I guess congratulations are in store as well.
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> ~tony
>Hi Tony!
I can certainly see you and I do have some things in common. I'm glad to hear your depression and panic are under control for the most part... that social anxiety, though... that's a tricky little bugger, ain't it? lol
Anyway, I'd like to post more, and I will later, but I've got to be at my therapist in half an hour so I'd better end this here for now. Thanks for the congrats, and thanks so much for sharing with me! I can't tell you all how much I appreciate really beginning to feel a part of a group. :-)
~~Michael
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