Posted by Temmie on July 20, 2003, at 20:52:23
In reply to Re: Seroquel--Temmie gabbix, posted by lostsailor on July 20, 2003, at 20:34:10
I am dead. And sick. I am dead and sick and I don't know where this conversation is going. First of all, I'm a beautiful woman, and a terrific "catch" by anyone's standards. I can't understand -- despite the abuse in my background -- how I got tangled up with this man .... One whom I knew so little about, but who's emotional baggage, addiction and disease were quickly apparant when we first got together. By then ... I was a goner. I guess that's where the "replicating what we're familiar with" comes in.
I loved the way he loved me.
This man ... just ... showered me with affection and praise.
I called a friend in Massachusetts tonight, actually a friend of Paul's whom I'd never met -- but to shorten things up -- who should happen to be there -- but Paul ... and Jane ....
The main point I communicated was *** I want my camera back *** That he should drive to Albany and leave it with a friend tomorrow.
After that?
I'll feel better able to let go, I think.
He says he still loves me, with Jane weeping in the background.
I asked him, "What does Jane think about all this?" And he responded, "I don't know what Jane thinks."
I could hear her in the background, "I'll tell her what I think ...."
So much f*cking melodrama.
I don't care who bit the apple first, and I don't think it's always the man at fault. I had enough red flags to caution against further involvement before things came to this ....
All I can say is -- thank God for beer, Xanax, Seroquel ... and occasional chats with friends to keep me going.
I'll get over this as soon as I'm able. (And you'll be hearing about it, no doubt, every step of the way.)
Temmie.
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