Posted by noa on July 14, 2003, at 0:56:23
In reply to Re: to suicide survivors... » noa, posted by gabbix2 on July 13, 2003, at 15:55:29
Well, that hospitalization was 19 years ago, when I was in my 20's. It took a year or two after that to really feel in the clear.
But my depression did come back with a vengeance in my thirties, after a few ok years, during which I only had mild depression sometimes. When it came back, it did not respond well to meds, and I also didn't respond well to higher doses of meds (because of SEs), so the depression became treatment resistent. From about 33 to 40, my depression was often quite awful. I was never hospitalized but came close at a couple of points.
When my thyroid disorder was finally diagnosed and treated, I started responding better to the AD meds and improved steadily for a couple of years. I don't remember when exactly I felt in the clear again, but it was probably when I was 40, in the year after the thyroid problem was addressed aggressively.
While I was getting better, I became very anxious about having the depression pounce on me when I least expected it. This was something I worked on very hard in therapy.
I still struggle with depression, but I bounce back much quicker now and haven't been suicidal for a long time.
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