Posted by kara lynne on July 5, 2003, at 1:08:33
In reply to NO NO NO » kara lynne, posted by whiterabbit on July 4, 2003, at 22:30:50
It doesn't make any sense. Or else any little bit of affection is worth a man who would sit on the phone and shred me to pieces. Maybe that's really how I feel. I hope when time passes I won't feel that way anymore. We couldn't even sleep in the same bed because he snored so loud. When we did sleep together he never cudddled with me----even for a few minutes. It was like sleeping with an autistic person. It was like *being* with an autistic person.
He had no respect for me--just hidden resentment and a book full of scathing criticism about me. But in our blissful denial he could come through sometimes with those little displays of affection. Maybe I could rent a man. Someone to just accompany me for the next few days, put his arm around me and tell me I look pretty from time to time. Someone to sit next to me in the theate while they're lighting off M80's.
Keep the aversion therapy coming, I need it. Did you go through a period of wanting him back before you got to this stage?
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