Posted by noa on July 4, 2003, at 22:30:57
I know we've discussed this before. I had all day and I was going to get stuff ready for my trip and it is now after 11 pm and I've barely begun. And we're talking flight leaves at 7:30 am which means leaving the house before 6:00!!
I have a lot to do. Well, at least I just washed some clothes to take with me. But nothing else is ready. I know this is bad--it is setting myself up to be in a tizzy in the morning, and forget something important.
I'm not overtly anxious yet, though. I keep thinking I'll just get up early (Hello, Noa!! You have to be up extremely early as it is, so what time is early early going to be???), even though I know I am a total grog when I wake up in the am.
Oh well. This is my procrastination mode to ward off feeling anxious about the trip, etc.
I'm looking forward to it but also have some trepidation. Putting on bathing suit first time in about 2 years. Seeing people I haven't seen in a decade.("So, Noa, what have you been up to these past 10 years?" "Oh, you know, the usual--developing a severe form of treatment resistant depression, becoming suicidal, trying a million and a half medications before finding a cocktail that is adequate but causes me to have acne, lose some hair, and, ahem, occasionally wet my pants, not to mention the weight gain, but I'm sure you've already noticed that I've gone from fat to humongous. And, I've been dealing with the other concomitant health problems--thyroid and sleep apnea, which by the way requires me to wear a contraption that might remind some of Darth Vader. You? Oh yes, I see your little ones--they're so cute! Me? No, no time for kids and the last relationship? Well, actually, that was in the previous millenium, as it happens! No, no kids, and, well, you know it would be so complicated anyway what with having to go off of medication and all. So, nope, no kiddies for me. Oh, yes, you're right--I do have so much freedom. NO hubby, no children, I can do whatever I like whenever I like. In fact, I don't have to do anything at all--heck that's pretty obvious from the state of my apartment--yep, that's the plus side of living all by my lonesome--yes, I know, I've heard that before--yes, envy me, do.")
OK, got that out of my system. Really, I think I will have a good time, at least with some people. And the location is going to be nice--near the beach and all. I do love the beach. It is just that I'd rather have it ALL to myself with no other humans around. Just me and the sand crabs and the dolphins. WHen I go to the beach, which is never if you look at hte past few years, I like to get up before dawn and go out and sit on the beach. Or, I like to sit out after sunset. Best times. You get to see all the birds, the cute little crabs walking sideways across the sand and busily digging their little holes and making little piles of sand, and if you're lucky--the dolphins will hop and skip and jump in the surf. I don't care for the hot sun anyway. If I sit on the beach during the day, I must have a big ole umbrella and a good book. Oh--book, I better not forget to pack one.
I'm going to be so darn tired at the all day party tomorrow--cuz it looks like I'm only going to get a few hours sleep tonight. oh well, I can always excuse myself to go check in to my hotel and take a nap and then come back for the rest of the party. Really--it is an all day thing.
So, I'll be offline till Tuesday. Take care of yourselves, all.
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