Posted by janejj on June 26, 2003, at 18:19:06
In reply to Re: Eating disorders » janejj, posted by yesac on June 26, 2003, at 15:43:08
Why is it that we toture ourselves like this ?
My mood can be severly altered by the numbers on my scale. I weigh myself like 6 times a day. I guess I should throw them out, but I wouldn't be able to.
I just feel that to be accepted i have to be petite. If i don't fit into a size 4 or 6 then some how i just feel i am not worthy. I look through magazines, see actresses in Movies, see regular people on the street and I feel like a huge giant compared to them. I am 5'8, so I always feel like a giant.
I once saw a celebrity that always looked a pretty healthy weight, someone that I aspired to. I saw her in real life and she was so small and petite, it made me realise how huge i am.
I sound so obsessive!! I would never tell anybody this stuff in the flesh, then they'd know i was crazy!
janejj
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