Posted by WorryGirl on May 15, 2003, at 10:31:35
In reply to Re: Why?, posted by Greg on May 15, 2003, at 8:15:54
> Hi WG,
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> Wow! A lot of responses, that's very cool! I'm glad you're feeling better about everything. Sometimes all it takes is to just air your feelings about things and they can get better. This is a good group of people and I know they'll be as supportive as they can. But now that you're one of the cool kids, can I still hang out with you? :)Like I told Coral, after all these responses, if I had have had this many friends in high school I would have had a chance at being Ms. Popularity (lol).
I'm not the type, anyway, even if I did have a bunch of personal friends (out in the real world), because I've realized that I'm just not one of those sheep that follow the pack. The few times I've tried, hoping to get some acceptance, it completely backfired, so I learned quickly that I have to be myself.I did a lot of thinking last night and I think that it's not so much that people don't like me; it's that I have a quality about me (wimpy, low self-esteem or whatever) that people read into, and they quickly realize that I will take whatever they dish out. If I could somehow project confidence continuously maybe this wouldn't happen. Who knows, maybe one day! For some reason I'm sometimes able to project this confidence when I first meet someone, but after a conversation or two they decide I'm not punchy enough or something. I'm not going to change who I am, but I am going to try to change my self-image. I've been looking in the yellow pages this morning at the therapists I haven't called yet!
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> God, it seems like we all have addictions to something, alcohol, drugs, food. One would think that having depression would be enough, don't ya think? Is it true what they say (who are THEY anyway) that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger?
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Everybody has to have something; keeping it under control is definitely the problem. As horrible and potentially deadly as the disease is, I admire anorexics in a strange way, because they are able to control their appetite so well. I could never! All I have to do is see a piece of chocolate cake or a platter of macaroni & cheese and it's all over. When I traveled to visit my best friend her overweight babysitter was talking to me about her overeating and said that it was ironic how similar our eating patterns were - the only difference was that she was much heavier than me. She didn't know why she couldn't bring herself to purge the food - I told her she was the smarter one. She replied how interesting it was that one of us can do that and one can't.
Oops, I'm rambling!> I used to spend a lot of time on this and a few other boards, way too much time. So I started limiting my time and the times of day I could visit them and it's worked out real well. I spend some time in the morning (about an hour before I start work) and 1 to 2 hours in the afternoon when I get home from work, and then the computer is used strictly for my home business only. It takes a lot of willpower which I don't have a lot of, but it seems to be working so far.
>I know how you feel. I'm getting so addicted to this board that I check it over a dozen times a day sometimes. I might go a few days without looking at all, but it's so hard to stay away! Maybe I'll try your approach.
> Well, we know that the Greg that you knew wasn't me...If you saw me at the beach, I wasn't playing volleyball or swimming, I was laying on a towel, under an umbrella most likely doing homework. I did get all A's and B's in high school. Didn't much help me be popular though. You know Greg was about the most popular name for a boy when I was born, but you hardly ever hear of anyone naming ther sons that now. My son's middle name is Gregory. I couldn't stand the thought of him being called Greg Jr. Yuck!
>You're right; people have stopped naming their sons Gregory, but I'm surprised that it isn't trendy to name the girls that now, with names such as James, Robby, Hunter, etc. that people are naming their daughters now.
When those cute athletic guys (such as Greg) weren't interested, I ended up befriending the guys with their noses in the books. Even though nothing serious evolved from those relationships, I made some interesting friends. Interestingly, one friend who seemed like he had the hugest crush on me, I later found out was gay. I tried to contact him but couldn't find him listed. I always wondered if he considered me as rejecting him because I didn't hit on him. Or maybe he sort of did have a crush, just not a sexual one. He was such a funny, super intelligent, talented guy.
> OK, I've rambled enough for one morning. I hope you have a good or at least tolerable day. And again, I'm glad you got lots of responses. Sometimes it just takes awhile to fit in, but I know you'll be fine!
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> Take care sweetie,
> Greg
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> P.S. If you ever want to email me, it's gbwhite at attbi dot com.
>Thanks so much; you're the best! - will hear from me soon!
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